… but I need to write it. It’s not that I don’t want to write this post because I’m scared of what anyone will say. I don’t want to write it because I don’t want to face the facts. I need to write it for me, though, to face it all. I need to see [...]

Tags: bipolar, meds, my life

Yep, that was me late last night. In spite of the fact that I obviously could breathe well enough to stagger around and talk incessantly about it. I was terrified I was going to stop breathing because of an asthma attack earlier in the day and this stupid cough. I even check with my peak [...]

Tags: meds, my life

Twice, actually, since a couple folks asked, but luckily I got over it. Unfortunately for ex number one, I married him in a fit of mania. Bipolar strikes again. Talk about a recipe for disaster. I divorced him in a fit of severe depression. All in all, he’s probably better off since I didn’t get correct [...]

Tags: bipolar, bpd, c-ptsd, my life

Well, I guess we’ll see.   When the new nurse called my name at the doctor’s office today, I stood up and immediately fell into another of those hacking up a lung fits that makes me see stars and pee in my pants. She told me to take my time, then smiled kindly and said, [...]

Tags: bipolar, meds, my life

Immi taps her way towards the voting precinct, cane in time with her shuffle. She sees men in suits with sheaves of blue paper lurking just beyond the “no campaigning” line. Immi muses to self that humans believe line drawn in sand is created just to be crossed. Man with largest sheaf of blue paper starts to [...]

Tags: bloody annoying, my life

Ooooh, I had lots of opportunities yesterday. I can get a Sony laptop, coupons from big brands of some sort or other, cheap Dish network, $1500 an hour doing a mystery job, better mascara, a free credit report, cheap price quotes for cars, rid my colon of toxins, financial aid, and a free Blackberry. I [...]

Tags: bipolar, hypomania, mental health, mental illness, my life

Weird bits of memories and flashbacks are coming at me the last couple of days.  It’s not the super heavy duty stuff that feels impossible to deal with. Just moderate stuff that just seems a bit difficult or weird.  I’m not sure why all this is coming out and about now. But it’s interesting, for [...]

Tags: c-ptsd, flashbacks, meds, my life, side-effects