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On top of everything else, I just got diagnosed as diabetic.  I feel completely overwhelmed.  I spend so much energy trying to manage the bipolar disorder and PTSD and asthma and COPD. Now this to manage too?  I’m not sure I can. My life is becoming just a series of things to manage and not much else.  It hardly seems worth getting up in the morning.  Situational depression speaks. ha! Oh well.

I do have the option of just ignoring the diabetes. It’s occurred to me. But I did watch my grandmother go blind and die of diabetic complications.  I’m not sure I’d mind it killing me. I’d mind going blind very much though, and I’d mind all the suffering along the way.  So I guess I will have to manage this too.  I don’t feel the least bit up to the task.

And oh yeah, the gut spasms I had that were supposedly caused by the Abilify came back. Is it the lamotrigine? IBS? Colon cancer?  Trying to get in to see the GI guy to find out.

And my business is completely going down the tubes.

On the plus side… errrrr… no one I know has died in the last few weeks. My cat is cute and snuggly. I’m not bald. That’s all I can think of at the moment.

Life is just pretty much sucking.