Trigger Warning I’m feeling better, so back to pondering. I can’t tell you how happy I am to be able to ponder today. Just imagine it, ok? I have some issues with diagnoses. Cutting or other self injury (SI) is one diagnostic criteria for Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). Along with repeated suicide attempts. Read the [...]Tags: blog therapy, bloody annoying, diagnosis, frustration, mental illness

RANT WARNING Other stuff after the sorta foul-mouthed rant, but hey, a rant is a rant. Immi is cranky. Immi is sick to death of customers. Immi is especially sick to death of stupid customers who send stupid emails. I just need to be able to do very simple searches to view all that you have for [...]Tags: anger, bloody annoying, c-ptsd, dim bulb, fear, frustration

I’ve always had a hell of a time with that.  Secrecy is what kept me abused for so long when I was a tot. Privacy had no meaning, really. My bedroom as a kid was private, except that my father ambled in to abuse me whenever he took the mind, and my mother ambled in [...]Tags: abuse, addiction, healing, recovery

.. that I was not like the others?  Birth?  Well, perhaps not that early. But my life was never like the others, and it didn’t take long for me to realize I was not like the others. TRIGGER AREA AHEAD  Abuse. Craziness. The beginning of the bipolar roller coaster. The root of C-PTSD. Yuk. Head off elsewhere [...]Tags: abuse, bipolar, child neglect, childhood sexual abuse, my life

…that I’m much more comfortable “talking” on my blog about bipolar stuff than the rest. The rest mostly being the various abuses I survived. Or the addictions I survived. Or the rape. Or the mugging at gunpoint.  Or. Or. Or.  Yes, the bipolar disorder is a total pain in the ass.  It’s hard to live [...]Tags: abuse, addiction, bipolar, rape, trust

If something can be blown out of proportion to the magnitude of a catastrophe, most of us can do.  Some of us are “better” at it than others. Nevermind that it’s not useful and makes us feel incredibly anxious, some of us get in the habit. Perhaps we should take up another habit instead. Today’s a [...]Tags: anxiety, c-ptsd, DBT, mental health

Wandering Coyote left a comment on my last post that was I really resonated with. I do agree with what you’re saying in this post, but I also believe that it’s important to know where the line between a label and a diagnosis is, because there is a difference. I think it’s totally unfortunate that someone [...]Tags: DBT, diagnosis, labels, lucky, meds