On top of everything else, I just got diagnosed as diabetic. I feel completely overwhelmed. I spend so much energy trying to manage the bipolar disorder and PTSD and asthma and COPD. Now this to manage too? I’m not sure I can. My life is becoming just a series of things to manage and not much else. It hardly seems worth getting up in the morning. Situational depression speaks. ha! Oh well.
I do have the option of just ignoring the diabetes. It’s occurred to me. But I did watch my grandmother go blind and die of diabetic complications. I’m not sure I’d mind it killing me. I’d mind going blind very much though, and I’d mind all the suffering along the way. So I guess I will have to manage this too. I don’t feel the least bit up to the task.
And oh yeah, the gut spasms I had that were supposedly caused by the Abilify came back. Is it the lamotrigine? IBS? Colon cancer? Trying to get in to see the GI guy to find out.
And my business is completely going down the tubes.
On the plus side… errrrr… no one I know has died in the last few weeks. My cat is cute and snuggly. I’m not bald. That’s all I can think of at the moment.
Life is just pretty much sucking.
Babbled by Immi.
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I know how you feel to some degree. Trying to manage the bipolar and as of right now I am a prediabetic. It does get easier after the initial shock and awe, if you will. It just becomes part of the daily med routine. Be strong and know that you can make it through this minor set back.
With Sympathy,
BPT
I’m so sorry to hear that Immi. But I believe you can manage it, even if it does feel like you can’t. Hang in there, I’m sure things will sort themselves out. Yay for cats
BipolarTurtle, yeah I know. I’m just tired of it all. I’m sick to death of managing bipolar as it is.
Thanks Svasti
Shit
aye. DKM is right: shit!
love you! *big hugs*
So I’m behind on checking blogs. I do check my mail thou and you haven’t written. As to your life, big shit! You can’t win for losing it seems. Hope things improve and the doc can figure out the bowel crap. Won’t say anything about managing as I don’t do so well in that department myself.
((((((((hugs))))))))
I am behind on my blog checking oh great cat lady, but I am sorry to hear this. I hope the doctor can figure out what is making you feel bad.
Please give the kitties and the duckie a hug from me and my kitty girl. Don’t forget how special you are.